1. Cosmics Coffee has officially closed down. This breaks my heart because it was my favorite hang out spot and it will be sorely missed. Many of my great adventures and conversations and friendships started here. This is also the place that helped me heal from The Fall.
2. Which brings me to mention however that Cosmics Coffee will be reopening under new ownership in July. New hours and new ownership though makes me skeptic as to whether or not I'll actually be as regular of a customer as I once was, we'll see.
3. It's not even so much that I fear I won't like it as much as that I've potentially already planted my roots into another coffee shop. It's Muddy Waters in Minneapolis and Gonzo and I went there after one of my work shifts a few weeks ago. I got dragged in because I liked hanging out with Gonzo and needed a new coffee shop anyways. There was an attractive regular that I really enjoyed checking out, but it seems that he's actually heterosexual, so what good is that. Not to mention that hitting on random strangers has never really been my scene.
4. I've been working a lot lately. Enough to the point where my brilliant schedule that I had worked out that included eating three solid meals a day and getting off of carbs and bringing back meat and lost of exercise and happiness has gone completely wayside. Instead, happy and productive Robert was replaced with under-rested, embittered Robert that hated any living thing that moved wanting a latte with extra foam (and all of the other pretentious coffee bitches & moans). My sleep schedule subsequently was pretty much ruined.
5. At the peak of all this work burnout and frustration, I had oral surgery to remove my last two wisdom teeth and put in the plate for my implant. I suffer from really high levels of anxiety in relation to surgery and anesthetics and so this was terrifying. But, my wonderful dear Milenko made sure that I was able to get through it and held my hand through the entire surgery and recovery process. Bless his heart.
6. I had way too much free time on my hands. I spent a lot of drugged up hours on vicodin playing Pokemon Emerald and posting on unforumz, which are the new boards for @forumz.
7. Masturbation has officially lost its fun and become a habitual pain that I just find myself having to do, because otherwise I feel like I'm cheating myself or something. This makes me think that mentally and physically, rather than emotionally, I need to get laid in the near future and should probably work on getting to do so. I've been in dry-spell mode for so long that I think I'm just in a dry spell now and it's not even important as to how I end it, I just need to end it. Somehow. Hopefully without diseases or complications.
8. Not being able to work out for an entire week+ and/or smoke is driving me up the motherfucking wall. I mean, I don't need to smoke ever, but if I can't work out, I don't know how the fuck else I am supposed to get my stress and anger out; I risk getting dry sockets right now though if I do anything involving sucking (like straws, smokes, etc). So that's been fun to deal with. I think a lot of my pent up anxiety is coming from being unable to do this.
9. I know that I have all of these television programs and video games and books I could be reading, but none of them even feel worth it when they're not being used as my release from a long day at work. It's like they're there to fill some pathetically empty void of aloneness and what's worse than that? I'd rather being doing these things because I want to and not because they're just something to pass the time.
10. My sister got a dog. His name is Moose. I call him Mücifer. This is Moose:
11. I think I've effectively summarized the month of June because clearly we're back to the bitching about my current state like I was talking about in the first blog entry today. Back to square one.
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