These past few nights I've felt like and thought about killing myself. I don't know where these feelings or thoughts are coming from. They terrify me. My thoughts, fears, and anxieties are consuming me. I haven't felt this way since I was 15. I'm afraid. I feel alone. I don't know who to talk to. I feel hysteric. I can't analyze a root or a source. But I feel I need to do something. I can't deal with this. I don't know what I'm doing anymore.